ARGH!!!! after all that ranting , I am better!:)))
PROMOS IS LIKE IN A DAY'S TIME!!!!
and I still suck at GP!!!!haix!!!!!shall mug!!!

TA-DA!!!

I CANT TAKE IT ANYMORE!!!!!WTH is this man!!!!
I know I am pure stupid to tell you those stuff!!! 真是良心當狗吠！seriously you suck!!!! TTM!!!!!
IF I AM REALLY SELFISH LIKE WHAT YOU SAY, I WOULD HAVE KEPT MY MOUTH SHUT! SO DON'T YOU COMPLAIN! in the first place, why should I even tell you these things??? If you wanna do well and brag to people about it, DEPEND ON YOURSELF LARHS!!!! ASK ME FOR WHAT!!!!!!! its not as if I know everything, and you still want to doubt me! what kind of shit is this man! if you don't believe the things I tell you and still want to comment about it, study yourself larhs!!!!why not just memorise the WHOLE lecture book?!?!?!?!
Well, you claim that I know exactly what's gonna come out and how to go about doing the paper, AND you think this is info is exclusive for some classes or people only, YOU ARE SO WRONG!!!!!! I seriously don't know what to say, it's either you are stupid or you didn't bother to listen during lecture where SO MANY HINTS are given. It's surprising that you didnt get any, NOT EVEN A SINGLE ONE! hahas! I know its evil and bitchy of me to post this but please larhs, put yourself in my shoes! EVERYDAY YOU COME TO ME AND ASK ME FOR CLUES, CRITICISE AND DOUBT EVERYTHING I TELL YOU, HOW HURTFUL IS THAT! I do understand that you are straightforward(that's just the nice way of describing you), BUT YOU ARE IN FACT INSENSITIVE!!!!! I have to be careful with what I say to you so as not to hurt you, but have you ever spared a thought for me! YOUR REMARKS ARE SO HURTING LARH!!!!! WTH!!!!! just leave me alone larhs! get a life man!!! don't always depend on others for hints, help...that just show how lousy you are!! even if you were to do well, its not your effort!!!!!you should thank others instead!!!!!

If you were to ever see this post, which I doubt so, you can do whatever you want!!!!
I expect something bad (cos things from you is nothing good!) but hahas I DON'T CARE!!!! do whatever you like, just leave me alone!!!AND STOP BRAGGING!!!!HOW DISGUSTING!!!

I AM TIRED!!!!!
argh...at least i get to rest this few days cos there's SPA
hmmmmmm.....
I am a happy girl, but my life is sad. Indeed, suddenly i like this phrase so much
I came up with it okay!:)))
oh yea, wait , i should be angry right now!
tsk! I am wondering if i should convert this post to a rant
but...tsk scolding too much isn't that good uh...hmmm
NVM I am a good girl:)))I shall keep quiet!
ask me if you wanna know:)))
James should know why i am angry!!!( * yea its that asshole lorhs, oops)
OKAY done with digressing, i shall go back to my PW:((((

Ta-da!

"You can close your eyes to things you don't want to see, but you can't close your heart to the things you don't want to feel."....haix
It's raining, AGAIN=.=
and my back is hurting like hell!!!!I want hot chocolate....
but mummy say its gonna make me fat:(((
OH YEA.....to think i got a compliment from Jacob...
It's really so sudden man! but thanks yea
hmm I wonder if it's a lie....HMMMMMMMM
hahas but I do agree okay! yes I know my eyes are beautiful!!!lalalas:)
but I am NOT X100000000000 cute okay!
that's a totally different thing...you should change it to beautiful instead of
cute....cos beautiful is a BETTER word!
Anyway, if any of you get to read this, let me tell you directly:
Please don't woo me, I am not available!!!!it's annoying okay

Ah yes, I wanna thank er ge! i love the cookies!!:)))
credits to da ge again!!!!lalalas
It's really nice knowing the 3 of you
At least you guys are always there for me, and I know I can count
on you:)))thanks once again!
LOVE YA ALL!:):):):)
yes, and life is still meaningful because I have you guys<3<3<3

yays!i am happier now:)))
FIONA IS A HAPPY GIRL AGAIN!!!!! except for the back pain uh=.=

Sometimes i really wonder if you care....
I tried convincing myself that it is so...but things always go wrong
Why am I always the one tolerating....Hey ! I should be the victim, why should I always care about your feelings. I even have to care about those related to you...What about mine???who cares???
You???? If you care, you wouldn't tell me that...
I am even controlled for what I write here...
I can't even write what I feel? what kind of absurd principle is this?
If what I write here affects you and somebody else that much, you should really reflect on it...
I've been thinking for quite sometime whether I should write something like that.
I know I would offend you or even others...But this is my blog, I've the right to write anything I like
So if you are unhappy, I would advise you not to read anymore....

I know many things have changed, so do you, and of course me. But it's really a torment for me... I am feeling great stress from school, and from you....
Thank goodness I am really busy....
If not I would go berserk....
Haix...i wonder how long would I take to get over this....
Nevertheless I am still happy，總算我們也愛過

从没想过 会再度与你相逢
这段时间 我们改变了什么
为何从来 不觉得你离开过
原来我的 爱还没坠落
如果当时 有什么还没有说
其实我也 早已明白了所有
已错过的 永远美丽而执着
总算我们 也狠狠爱过
纸飞机 给了我们勇气去作梦
就算没有一起到最后
纸飞机 带着我们共同作的梦
乘着白云 飞到永恒那个山峰
如果当时 有什么还没有说
其实我也 早已明白了所有
已错过的 永远美丽而执着
总算我们 也狠狠爱过
纸飞机 给了我们勇气去作梦
就算没有一起到最后
纸飞机 带着我们共同作的梦
乘着白云 飞到永恒那个山峰
纸飞机 给了我们勇气去作梦
就算没有一起到最后
纸飞机 带着我们共同作的梦
乘着白云 飞到永恒那个山峰

Thanks anyway...

Okay, this is an achievement.....
i managed to talk to you as a friend
have i really got over it?i dont know....
but keep it up Fiona:)))
and its an achievement!!!!cos i my emotions and feelings are well kept!
I shall always remind myself that i am NOT supposed to reveal and feelings:)))

A wish suddenly struck me just now:)))
I want to attend all Jay Chou's concert and get to talk to him personally!!!!!
wahahahas, i thought of this when i was having tuition...how stupid=.=
its very obvious i wasnt paying attention, and now, i know nothing about ionic equilibrium...wth!!!!
serve me right! Anyway, I miss Jay Chou lots, but too bad cos i cant go down to listen to him today...uber sad:(((((((
So I am gonna make this wish: I WISH TO ATTEND EVERY CONCERT OF JAY CHOU!!!!
of course without spending daddy's and mummy's money....hopefully, hehe!
well it seems so late to make this wish since i am a fan of jay chou since young but nvm!!!! i am so gonna see him!REALLY SOON!!!!
now i am waiting for my merchandise from his concert, cos someone promise to help me buy!!!!thanks in advance yeah:))))))

OKAY, enough of dreaming! I should be studying=.=
bye blog!

hmm, I know its time i wake up....until today, i didnt realise that our love could be so deep
so deep that i cant seem to forget....
my heart ache like hell just now, and i cried.....but i have finally come to a conclusion
i should put a stop to this................
I dont know if i should give any hope to myself
but.....its just the time to stop imagining and get down to reality
well, I seriously wonder if i could ever ever do it, but......
listening to jay just now made me think alot
I know you always and constantly worry about me and my stuff
but do you know that the more you ask, the more you try to be closer when you shouldn't be
makes my heart really ache. I know you want to keep in contact with me, and always saying that i can confide in you no matter what happens, but i would like you to know that
I cant! yes I cant.....
I cant even face you at all... You seem so okay with me but have you ever thought of my feelings?
Its definitely not your fault for caring about me, but you should know that I am a very stubborn person, i hold to my values dearly, so if i cannot talk to you, means i cant!
You may just want to show care, and i dont blame you for that, but its just something i cant accept...
it makes me fall even more deeply, maybe even worse than falling into an abyss....
You have your own life to lead now, and i am no longer part of it and same goes to me....
but i would assure you that i would lead it well....
Thank you so much for your care....
On that note, I would say my final goodbye....
This post has come down really hard on me, but i have no choice
I cant be selfish, you have your own life and i shouldnt be a burden to it so....

BYE

Yes i am back from Jay's concert!!!!okay its abit late uh:))
but nevermind, the concert was so awesome...
I am just too excited to sleep:)
too bad DSLR is not allowed, if not, i would have better photos!:((((
well, I am so gonna sneak it in when he comes again:))))wahahaha!!!!
hmm, didnt buy merchandise today:(((( partly because we were abit late and most of the stocks are SOLD OUT:((((uber sad!!!!!
but...........someone's gonna go down to buy it for me tmr!!!:))))))))))
Anyway, the concert was a total success plus the animations were beautiful, seriously!!!!
according to brian, its 4D...tsk tsk stupid me!
there were like about 2 encores at the end eh:))))hahas abit unexpected...
the atmosphere was like totally damn high!!!!!i almost lost my voice!!!!
okay , after this concert, i found out that i was really emotional
still can cry=.=!! haix....nvm! good job jay!!!! rest well and do your best for the last one tmr!:)))))
Finally thank you so much for the priceless night!:))))))

YI PO passed away.........
she has suffered for 4 years without her two legs. Sometimes I really wonder how did she manage to do it, but haven't gotten any answer. I don't know whether I should be sad or take it that her suffering has ended but one thing I am sure, is that i miss her.
Though we weren't very close, I know she loves me a lot and it's my fault for not being able to see her for the last time when mummy told me that her condition is very critical. Well, maybe its just fated that i won't be seeing her.
It took me really hard to get over this period because it is my responsibility not to bring any personal matters to school. I thought I was able to carry myself really well, but now I doubt so. Mummy saw me crying:(

TODAY
went for yipo's funeral
It is the last day of her funeral. I told myself not to cry because mummy say if I cry, yi po won't leave peacefully. So I did my best not to cry. It was really hard, but at least I am proud to say I didn't, not a single drop. Musicians, and monks were invited to conduct the procession. I would say, it looked more like a wedding than a funeral, because the music were so loud. Luckily it's conducted in the landed properties area, if not i wonder if anybody could tolerate the loud music. So everything started at 2. Thereafter, we sent her to the crematorium. The whole atmosphere there was sad and solemn. I held back my tears really really hard, but no matter what, it just flowed. I can't bear to send her in. But very soon, her coffin was pushed in, and that was the last time i'd see her. All of us shouted, but she's gone. We cried, we called, we shouted, but she would never be back...............
不过所谓天下无不散之宴席，有聚必然就有散。I don't have to be sad, because she is still living in my heart. 她教会了我许多。 就像这场出殡的仪式，当我看到她被推进火葬场， 我才知道，原来人生是多末地可贵。如果世上没有生命，那该有多可怕。我也不敢想太多。

Thereafter, headed for school, as usual, for investiture rehearsal.
Many people asked if i was was okay, and then i started crying.
Thanks Mrs Tay, and Mrs Tan for understanding:) love you guys!
the rehearsal finished quite fast, and i went for rockfest.
OMG its so high! Despite my mood, it was really hard not to be as high. So we partied! and yes, i felt better after all that screaming, dancing and jumping
Thank you Vanessa, elaine and claudie:))))

finally I am ending my post! Rest in peace Yi po! I LOVE YOU!